Vague question, given that I dream of becoming so many things. For one, I wanted to be an Olympic Athlete, or at least be a coach to an Olympian. (That’s bit of a blur right now). Second, I want to star in a Broadway Musicale, this one’s a bit of a long shot, considering I can’t even land a lead, let alone a ROLE in our school musical. I also want to be a VS angel, a Ramp Model, Costume Designer and so much more that involves the glitz and glamour or Hollywood.
But fame aside, what I really want (and this dream I’ve got a vivid picture in my head) is to be a HOUSE WIFE. I know that this isn’t the kind of dream somebody works hard for, and when you’d probably just answer me with a pun that all I need is my “prince charming”. But its a lot harder than it seems, I want to be a HAPPY house wife, and I want to build a Pre-School. I really want to focus on my family, that’s something I’ve always promised my self.
I know what you’re all thinking, I’m too young to think of these. I’m only 18, I know. Barely legal. But while all of you dream of getting degrees in Medicine and Law, I was dreaming of these. Don’t get me wrong, nothing wrong finishing school, heck I want to pursue law my self, but a part of me really want to concentrate on Education and Education.
Anyway, going back. Once I build my pre-school, I’ll build an even larger mansion next to it. My pre-school kids will be dressed in pink & blue uniforms. They’ll be the brightest students and they will learn ahead of everyone in their age.
Same goes for my children. They will lead a humble life and they will pursue all the dreams they want to pursue. Whether to be an athlete, a performer or to focus hard on their Academics. I will support them and give them 10 times the support my parents gave me, and this time it will be enough.
And my husband (or wife, I’m open to the idea) will be happy. We will work hard, won’t seek for what we don’t have but at the same time, be insatiable and strive for what we rightly deserve. We will be contented, and we will be happy, but it won’t be easy.
I din’t intend for this to be long, I guess I got carried away. But yes, this is what I want, or at least IDEALLY.
So which college is right for me?
I know I’m not suppose to be up, considering there’s school tomorrow and its 1:50 am. But surprisingly, at this hour of the night (..or morning) I realized something. I realized something important.
I realized how irrelevant I’ve become. Well, at least more irrelevant than before. And this brings me to the conclusion that this would explain how unhappy and upset I am with the world.
I was irrelevant before, but I was driven and focused (or atleast most of the time) and I din’t mind, but now I do. SO much. I dread how obsessed I’ve become with the things I want that the obstacles that are getting in the way become my biggest frustrations.
I’m so frustrated. Frustrated of how this is all turning out. MY supposed “best year ever” is not even half as great as last year. Or maybe I’m speaking waay too soon. Maybe I’m suppose to feel this way. God is testing my patience.
I will get better. I will stop missing what’s gone and done. YES.
Moving on with life..
What Happened Today: July 26 edition
So,first time after a long time; classes got canceled today! Yeeeey! Got home at around 1 pm, even tho they suspended at 9. BOO.
Well basically, this day’s chill. MATH QUIZ HJKEHDNF, English Presentation then, CL journal writing. (Then I tried to cut Zara’s hair :o then she got pissed :O ) :D Yup that’s how you define a chill day. I don’t really mind the workload as long as I’m productive! #hypocrite. OKAY, maybe sometimes I mind the workload.
I was planning to work on my Ateneo essay, but… I doubt that’s going to happen. The weather’s so nice and I would like to spend it watching Modern Family,please!!!! But, no that’s not the way things are gon go.
MUST BE PRODUCTIVE. MUST FINISH THINGS. MUST SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT. MUST STUDY FOR MATH.
It would be easy to reiterate and post pictures about the past events of my life,and they’re plentttty since its FAIR&PROM-season already. <3 (not that I’ve already attended a prom, just want to state that IT IS. Hahaha), but that would be a bore and that would take too much time, all I know is that the past few days were.. amazing, but like I said, amazing would be an understatement. I simply can’t put into words, nor pick the right adjective to describe the feeling.
Well anyway, it all started last week when we had our PAD. It was extra fun and extra special this year! I love my class so much! Our theme was, showtime(as in, the variety show), and they picked me to play Anne, I was actually asleep while they were casting so, I din’t have a say, but its all good. :-j
Then the next day, service awards. It was kindof a bore, since we practically din’t do anything but camwhole..well not really, we slept. :-/
Now, AWIT NG PUSO. HAHAHAHAH I don’t even know where to begin.
Well, let me start na lang by staying, this is NOT my teatro-year, most definitely. Just saying.. Cause it seems like its an unstated fact. I guess its all partly my fault, because of all the decisions I’m making and all the efforts I’m producing. Anyway, I’ll leave all that for another blog.
I guess all I’m trying to say is, I’M HAPPY. Although it may not seem like it, but I really am. I love how everyone loves the play and everyone’s supporting and even promoting the play! I also love how it makes me so busy, wait no.. busy’s not the word.. I love how it takes so much of my time, cause I really need a distraction right now. Distraction from all of the sadness in this world! HAHAHAHA
Anyway, I also realized that so much happiness also means, so much disappointment and sadness. I mean, you always have to pay the price, nothing’s free anymore. :(
That’s all. I hope I din’t confuse my self even more by writing this. =))
Oh, and then, Alyssa joined us. But unlike us, She finished her seat-work. HAHAHAHA We’re crazy =))
This is one of the funniest. HAHAHAHA I love you, G!
Me, Lauren and Carmy were procrastinating during C.L time because we din’t want to do the loooong seat-work. We were playing with my phone, with the frames and effects and all. HAHAHAHA
I lied, THIS one’s the last na. Peace and love everyone <3
Me and my best friend, Rebecca. :))
With Datu and Alyssa. HAHAHAHA