I swear I had it all figured out.

But I never knew it could be this complicated. When its right in front of you, when its just about to happen. I thought I knew what I wanted out of life. I thought I knew what I wanted what I wanted to do. I thought dreaming about big things is enough. Endless wrongs, endless mistakes. 

Just need to keep on going! Hope I never lose the motivation to go after my dreams.

Today someone asked me what my dream was.

Vague question, given that I dream of becoming so many things. For one, I wanted to be an Olympic Athlete, or at least be a coach to an Olympian. (That’s bit of a blur right now). Second, I want to star in a Broadway Musicale, this one’s a bit of a long shot, considering I can’t even land a lead, let alone a ROLE in our school musical. I also want to be a VS angel, a Ramp Model, Costume Designer and so much more that involves the glitz and glamour or Hollywood. 

But fame aside, what I really want (and this dream I’ve got a vivid picture in my head) is to be a HOUSE WIFE. I know that this isn’t the kind of dream somebody works hard for, and when you’d probably just answer me with a pun that all I need is my “prince charming”. But its a lot harder than it seems, I want to be a HAPPY house wife, and I want to build a Pre-School. I really want to focus on my family, that’s something I’ve always promised my self. 

I know what you’re all thinking, I’m too young to think of these. I’m only 18, I know. Barely legal. But while all of you dream of getting degrees in Medicine and Law, I was dreaming of these. Don’t get me wrong, nothing wrong finishing school, heck I want to pursue law my self, but a part of me really want to concentrate on Education and Education. 

Anyway, going back. Once I build my pre-school, I’ll build an even larger mansion next to it. My pre-school kids will be dressed in pink & blue uniforms. They’ll be the brightest students and they will learn ahead of everyone in their age.

Same goes for my children. They will lead a humble life and they will pursue all the dreams they want to pursue. Whether to be an athlete, a performer or to focus hard on their Academics. I will support them and give them 10 times the support my parents gave me, and this time it will be enough.

And my husband (or wife, I’m open to the idea) will be happy. We will work hard, won’t seek for what we don’t have but at the same time, be insatiable and strive for what we rightly deserve. We will be contented, and we will be happy, but it won’t be easy. 

I din’t intend for this to be long, I guess I got carried away. But yes, this is what I want, or at least IDEALLY. 

So which college is right for me? 

Its getting easier and easier not to miss you..

..just because you’re giving me reasons why I shouldn’t and why you’re a waste of time.

So I’m trying to forget something that never really actually happened, does that make any sense? 

Okay anyway, I tried out for something ‘big’ today. And if I get in, hopefully, my existence in this world would be.. more meaningfu — or atleast I’d make sense in this world.HUH —okay I’m not making any now.  

Oh and I cut my hair! Like,literally I was the one who cut it and all! 

Okay, I’lve got more to tell, but I’m sleepy now so..yey! 

Goodmornight! :D

[coinoperatedcharm:glamprincess]

I WANT YOU :”>

Justin Beiber’s a bitch :(

But I’m in-love with him. I mean, I do my best to give effort to this relationship, trying to make it work. Losing my pride and dignity, giving everything!!! —and yet you’re choosing others over me. What did I do to deserve this?!?! There’s only one thing, one thing that I want from you.. REPLY TO MY TWEETS :( 

I LOVE YOU JUSTIN BEIBER :(( 

We’re the new face of failure, prettier and younger but not any better off.

This was exactly a month ago. And yet I’ve already gained 894657 pounds :( Sad life is sad. Ever since I started training again, I also started to take more and more carbo in. —Which is sad. :| Oh and I want abs too, yes I sacrifice my attempts of gaining curves for abs. :( 

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